Drawing Closer Chapter 3

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Chapter 3 What I don't want lost, what is left in my heart - Hikari Translation

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TL: Kazue Kurosaki

ED: Kazue Kurosaki

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"Wow! Mizuki, look! Very beautiful"

"Yes. It's really different from what I saw on TV." 

A Christmas tree that enters the clouds made a surprising sound.

24 December. Christmas Eve.

After completing work behind the scenes as usual, the two walked home and stopped by to see the lanterns that live on the street.

"Listen, Misaki. Said that this tree uses 20,000 light bulbs. I don't know how much it costs overnight electricity.”

“Mizuki can you stop saying things like that destroy my dreams. In this case, you can say ‘Misaki, you are thousands of times prettier than a lantern.’ isn't it is that better?”

“A bit shameless to say something like that yourself.”

The two chatted with happy and laughing at each other. And views like this already like this since summer, and it hasn't changed.

However, there is something that changed.

After Mizuki and Misaki started dating as lovers, they appreciate their time even more spend together.

After completing work behind the scenes after school, the two will go home together and spend their rest day together. Even if you don't do something special or play anywhere, as long as you both stay together, you will be satisfied.

However, no matter how much satisfied with the time spent, Mizuki always felt anxiety in her heart.

“Ah, Mizuki! Look, water the fountain is on there!”

“Ah, Misaki, wait. Don't too patient, the fountain won't come out.”

Saw Misaki holding hand and pulling hard, Mizuki made a confused sound and ran forward with him.

During this pause, Mizuki stared sad towards Misaki and took her hand.

Recently, Mizuki noticed that Misaki was losing weight. When he holds his hand, when he held her arm, Mizuki felt that Misaki's body gradually lose weight. This may be a manifestation it was clear from Misaki's worsening condition.

The doctor said that Misaki cannot survive until the age of 20. Not only that, but even one year in serious cases.. Although this is a choice he did, it is not surprising that Misaki refused to be hospitalized for treatment had reached the point where he would die.

“What's wrong? You look strange.”

“Ah, it's okay. —By the way, Misaki, can you come here?” 

“Huh? Is that okay?”

Misaki tilted her head curiously, Mizuki gave a gentle smile. I hide my pain and anxiety in my heart...

Soon, Mizuki took out slim box with ribbon from the backpack. 

“Merry Christmas. It's presents Christmas foryou.”

“Wow! Thank You. What's this, can I open it?” 

Inside was a pair of pencils mechanics and pens designed to be paired. 

"At first, I thought to buy small jewelry or something, but I don't know what to do choose what.. Then I thought that if I bought this, you could use it every day."

“Yes, I will use it in school. Thank you, Mizuki." 

Misaki put both pens in into the box and smiled. 

Looks like Misaki is also very happy, Mizuki breathed a sigh of relief. 

"Then it's your turn for Christmas gifts. Come on, scarf .. Even though I don't knit it myself, I just buy it from outside." 

Misaki enters Mizuki's gift for himself into his backpack, and took out the appropriate package for Mizuki.

Mizuki took the package and open it to find a cyan colored scarf that looks like it can be worn on school.

“I will appreciate it and use it.”

“Yes!”

Misaki nodded happily when he sees Mizuki wearing a scarf and thanks her alone. For some reason, not only the neck, but also the heart warming.

After exchanging gifts, the two enjoy the lantern casually and leave town. After Mizuki sending Misaki to his door, he walks home alone.

Walk through the streets cold night, Mizuki twirled the scarf with her left hand, and stared his right hand, looking at the right hand that had been held with Misaki's finger until now...

The more Mizuki wants to appreciate Misaki, the more anxiety in her heart swelled. He has spent many nights awake with the fear of losing Misaki. Even though he knew that he didn't want this, Mizuki's mood so strong that he hoped that Misaki would be hospitalized soon for treatment, which will slightly prolong his life.

But time indeed cruel. As if mocking Mizuki who was afraid of the passage of time, needles the clock continues to move forward.

However, in circumstances such as that, December 26 was ushered in. The first day of winter vacation is a busy and busy day for Mizuki to the point that there is no fear.

"Then let's go start cleaning! I'm going to clean up the library today, so be enthusiastic,"

misaki said to Mizuki after gathering at the library early in the morning. Today, they the two make a promise to clean up the library as the end of behind the scenes work.

“It's been a long time since I was allowed using this library, but this is my first time cleaning it.”

“Anyway, I have a lot happy memories here. With gratitude, let's clean even corner."

"Hmm. Come on,"

Mizuki nodded in agreement misaki's words, and she looked around the library.

In December of the year first Mizuki high school started to enter and leave this library, so that's exactly one year. Thinking like this, my first time talking to Misaki is in this library. Additionally, recognition for Misaki is also here...

As Misaki said, even though it was only once, Mizuki wanted to express her gratitude as big as possible and clean this place beautifully. Because this is the only way I can pay back this library.

Mizuki wore her apron excitedly and wearing a triangular scarf on his head.

"Sorry to keep you waiting. Let's get started." 

"Okay——. Let's get started by cleaning the bookshelf." 

Use a dust cloth to wipe dust from the books lined up on the shelves. Because there are quite a lot of bookshelves in the library, it is a high-intensity workforce. 

“Mizuki, how about you there?” 

“Finally got the line third.” 

“Ah, it looks like a trip still long.” 

Due to the large number of workers, despite the cold weather, both of them were still sweating profusely. But after by midday, the cleaning of the bookshelves was finally over. Sweep dust off the shelf the final book, Misaki moved her shoulders. 

"Book shelf cleaning finally finished. Why don't we have lunch first, then we'll go work.”

“It's okay, but Misaki, can you still handle it? today's workload is quite heavy... If you think it's hard, let me know anytime. I will do the rest." 

Mizuki saw a lot of Misaki sweating, and worrying about his heart, so he asked carefully.

And Misaki flicked her forehead with a "hey" to this worried girlfriend.

"Thank you for your attention, but if you take care of me like a fragile thing, I will be very tired. I'm also a high school student, and if I feel very hard, I would definitely say ‘Ah, no.’ It might be a bit difficult for you, but if you can protect me until then, I will be very happy."

Seeing Mizuki cover his forehead shocked, Misaki gave Mizuki enough smiles to make her feel comfortable.

So Mizuki was very embarrassed and blushing.

“That's right... forgive me. My job is not just to worry about it.”

“Yes,”

mizuki answered Misaki while smiling.

As a result, until the afternoon, cleaning the two people didn't end until almost afternoon.

And when he did cleanliness in the afternoon, Misaki didn't say a word "work hard". Just focus on making the library beautiful. This it's almost like saying that when the opportunity doesn't go away, it won't come again.

Therefore, Mizuki too doesn't seem to worry too much about Misaki.
Actually, Mizuki was already worried. Even so, he still tried hard not to show his overprotective feelings.

However, towards the library beautiful, "Thank you so much for this year", and Mizuki got it spend the New Year in a bright mood.

*

New Year is coming come. Mizuki faces the biggest test of her life since morning in New Year.

“Let me introduce you. This is my girlfriend, Akiyama Mizuki!”

“Um, first, meeting first. Me, my name is Akiyama... Mizuki, Mizuki, Mizuki. Today, it...Accept thank you very much for the invitation.”

Mizuki was so nervous that sound changed. He stammered in his words and his movements were as stiff as a doll, and he saluted the middle-aged man and woman in front of him.

This is home Misaki. Then, Mizuki faced Misaki's parents in front of the entrance.

At the start of the new year, Mizuki go visit Misaki's parents.

By the way, even though mom Misaki looks like an old Misaki, her father and Misaki look very different. His face was soft but firm, he was probably medium exercising, and he is very strong.

"Don't be too careful. The first time we met, Mizuki-san, I was Misaki, Kensuke's father, Fujieda Kensuke. It's hard for you to come here today."

“I am Misaki's mother, Izumi. In it's cold outside, please come in. Just think of it as your own home.”

"Okay, okay! Excuse me."

With parents' welcome Misaki, Mizuki lowered his head again forcefully.

So why did Mizuki visit misaki's house on New Year's Day?

The reason is because of him received an invitation from Misaki's parents who were standing in front of him now.

“By the way, Mizuki, you free on New Year's Day, right?”

“Even though your insistence makes me feels a little strange, but I have a lot of free time.”

“Then come to my house. My parents said they wanted to see you, so let it be I'll take you back."

"Oh, Misaki, people your parents.... —Wait, huh! ? '

Such conversations occur on New Year's Eve.

After understanding in more detail, it seems Misaki's parents heard that Mizuki's uncle hasn't returned yet, and they could only spend the New Year alone, so they said, ‘If so why don't we let him come to our house to play?’

Chat in front of the entrance ended, and Mizuki was taken to the living room. At Kensuke's urging, Mizuki sit opposite him. Sitting across from my girlfriend's dad really stress. Even though the weather was still cold, Mizuki was already sweating profusely.

"Well, let's just say that yours, relax."

Kensuke said with a smile, maybe aware of Mizuki's appearance.

Of course, if you can really relax like at home, then no one will feeling difficult. Mizuki sat with his back straight, and only answered "Thank You".

So, the second test on Mizuki happened next.

“Then I will make tea for you.”

“Ah, Mom, I'll go too.”

Unexpectedly, with his mother who was standing in the kitchen, even Misaki disappeared from the living room.

So, that means there is only Mizuki and Kensuke is left in this room. ...he was so nervous almost fainted.

However, Kensuke's voice restore Mizuki's awareness that he will be swept away.

"I really don't thinking that one day, I could meet Misaki's boyfriend like this... Honestly, right now last year, I really didn't think about it."

kensuke said with great emotion in making Mizuki calm again.

This time last year, Misaki maybe still in the hospital. For Misaki's parents, not to mention his girlfriend, maybe they didn't even dare to think about their daughter for return to this house again.

Anyway, time can they spend time with Misaki in this house again, which is definitely not the time replaceable for them.

So, now, Mizuki finally understand one thing. He robs them and Misaki of precious time they can spend it. Selfish prioritizes his own feelings, completely ignoring them other people who appreciate Misaki...

"...I'm sorry."

Mizuki has subdued his head is on Kensuke and apologizes. Mizuki realized that everything was him do it beforehand full of possessive selfishness, so he should apologize.

“Why are you sorry?”

“I always felt that for you two, I'm like a stumbling block that makes you lose time that you spent with your daughter...”

mizuki said honestly to Kensuke, who smiled calmly and asked questions came out of his thoughts.

However, Kensuke shook his head his head "this is wrong" at Mizuki's anxiety.

"The time you spend being with Misaki is very important. But, more than that, we want to see his happiness. If he can keep smiling until the last moment...then we as a couple will do nothing more. I asked for that. If the time spent with you is precious to Misaki, then we are have no complaints."

Kensuke stressed with a voice steady but strong.

Mizuki was surprised by his attitude and couldn't hold his breath.

Even if I don't spending it on myself, as long as Misaki can be happy, then I don't want anything else.

With such awareness, Mizuki don't know if he's lying. Because in his heart, he couldn't holding back the feeling that he wants to be with Misaki.

However, the father in front of him prioritized it his daughter's desire and happiness rather than his own feelings that he wanted spend it with his daughter. He loved his daughter so much that he can even hold back his feelings, and be fully psychologically prepared to the future awaits him.

In front of Kensuke's consciousness strong, Mizuki couldn't say anything.

Seeing Mizuki who was silent, Kensuke continued.

"I heard it from Misaki. You saved him two years ago. Thank you very much. Me just wanted to tell you today."

"Ah, no. I just do what I can. This is just a problem."

Saw Kensuke subdue his head to her, Mizuki responded sincerely and fearfully.

But Kensuke didn't stop at situ.

“Honestly, I can't yet completely trust you, because I don't know you very well, but, though I see, I want to trust you. Even though I don't know what will happen, he's just talking about you."

"Well, that's what it has to be i do."

Mizuki answered sincerely to Kensuke who spoke sincerely.

When Kensuke heard mizuki's answer, Kensuke showed a steady smile.

"Thank you, I'm happy if you can say that.——Ah, yes, I'm sorry to say that which is hard on you suddenly. Let's have fun as if it were the year new."

As soon as those words fell, kensuke's serious mood broke.

Through a conversation with him, Mizuki the somewhat relieved ones became more relaxed.

So, Kensuke said "Tell me about Mizuki-san" and leaned off the table.

"I have something that want you to see today. I thought you would be very happy..."

kensuke said, and hurriedly take something from behind the TV table and place it on the table.

At the same time, Mizuki's eyes becomes straight when he sees "it".

"This, this..."

"How. Are you like it?"

Kensuke asked with a smile evil.
In his smile, Mizuki saw Misaki's mischievous face. It seems smiling and his personality was inherited from his father.

However, Mizuki looked at pile "it" on the table——

"Of course. I feel to it's deep in my heart now that it's great to be here today."

Mizuki trembled with emotion, and shook hands with Kensuke tightly. That's when friendship between men born.

So, Kensuke urged to "open it and see", Mizuki was about to get "it" in his hand.

“What are you two talk?—Wait, isn't that my photo album! Dad, why are you get it out!”

I wonder if the strange premonition appeared, and Misaki returned just in time. He took the photo album is from Mizuki's hands.

Moreover, when Mizuki avoiding Misaki and wanting to get another album on the table, Misaki protect him immediately. Even though the photos inside are not yet visible, it seems that the fact that the album was released has made him quite embarrassed.

"It's just a photo album, let me see it. I'm very interested in what kind of child Misaki is used to.”

"Even if it is mizuki's request, it is unacceptable! If you read it, I will break up with you!"

Facing Mizuki who protesting, Misaki held a photo album on her chest and shouted loudly.

It seems the appearance of the album this made Misaki quite nervous. However, it is completely free to said that you would break up with each other. Even though Mizuki knows that he is not evil, the word still leads him astray.

However, regarding that album, Mizuki really don't want to back down.

Instead, the more he hiding, the more he wanted to see it. It is human nature. With this way, Mizuki develops an enchanted urge to want to see what album what happened.

Kensuke next to him smiled embarrassed, Mizuki looked at Misaki with a pushy smile.

“Misaki, please think back when you came to my house around early December.”

“...I don't remember.”

“When I grope inside cupboard, you found my photo album.”

“That. ...um, I just found it accidentally.. this is definitely not a mistake..."

Mizuki counts old accounts, coincidence. Seeing the surprised expression of his father who was still listening, Misaki was clearly embarrassed.

And it's no different from victory. To Misaki, who is still reluctantly stubborn, Mizuki reply with a fatal blow.

"But aren't you very nice seeing. I could hear your strange voice from the kitchen at that time, and I think something happened. I rushed to see it, but I didn't thinking you were going to hum a song while flipping through my album, I almost fell there on the spot."

"I-I didn't make it such a loud sound... I didn't hum that song... I have to..."

"Well, I will letting you hum. Compared to this, Misaki Thought about things another. You said it yourself when you cleaned the library. 'Be fair'...Is that a lie?"

"Liar is not a lie. ...But, this is different from that..."

"Let's be fair. Albums too must be fair."

"...Ok"

Maybe because he felt guilty because he was the only one who saw Mizuki's album, Misaki finally gave up under Mizuki's coercion.

For Mizuki, it was an unforgettable first victory in a war of words with Misaki. He secretly clenched his fists.

Soon, Misaki looked at Mizuki awkwardly.

“I can show it to you. If you dare laugh, I will never talk to you for the rest of my life.”

“That's a bit of a joke out of your mouth, Misaki... sorry. I think I might laugh from start to finish while looking at the photo album. When I saw Misaki's photo, I didn't feel sure that I couldn't laugh!"

"Ugh..."

Hearing Mizuki's words sincerely, Misaki let out a strange groan, and everyone was shocked to death taste. Mizuki's strong counterattack made Misaki's face red because hot.

When he regained consciousness, Kensuke and Izumi, who returned at some point, seemed to hold back their laughter, and their shoulders kept shaking.

"Have you always like this?"

"Well, almost always like this. But basically I was bothered by Misaki.. It's first this time today I can say something about winning Misaki." 

Mizuki became happy because an excuse, and laughed with them. So Misaki, that in the end abandoned, perhaps feeling stupid for being embarrassed by yourself. So after Mizuki. Room it was filled with laughter from the four of them.

After laughing out loud, everyone starts a photo album appreciation meeting. Misaki's parents explain each photo in detail, and every time he says it, Misaki will scream shyly. 

And Mizuki, like him say, listen to Misaki's childhood fun stories with a smile on his face from start to finish.

Mizuki doesn't know how misaki's parents thought of her in their hearts. But even so, they accepted Mizuki into a family circle like this. Now in their warmth, Mizuki felt the faces of her parents who had died. And Mizuki felt happy from the bottom of her heart that she could had such a warm time in his life again.

After reading the photo album and enjoy luxurious New Year's dishes and stews at Misaki, Mizuki and Misaki goes to Hatsumode together.

“...Even if it's a little, I hope Misaki-san will stay as healthy as possible.”

Mizuki folded her arms to Kami-sama's direction and prayed desperately. He's not a doctor, so all he could do was pray to the gods. Mizuki felt very restless because of his own helplessness.

After queuing around 30 minutes, finally the visit ended. Mizuki and Misaki buy crepes at the booth, and both of them went home.

“If you keep eating and drink good things like this, you will gain weight in the New Year.”

“This is also an option. Eat more and build a strong body that is no less than disease!”

Misaki sighed while holding the finished Crepe wrap. Mizuki echoed that it was an idea good one. He really hoped that Misaki could eat more.

"Hmph, even though I know that I really should eat more to increase strength my physique... But when my girlfriend laughed and said 'it's okay to be fat', I feel very complicated..."

It seemed like Mizuki's answer was as if something was wrong, Misaki muttered with an unacceptable expression.

A woman's heart, a needle under the sea. Mizuki still didn't understand what he was thinking Misaki.

“Forget it. Very weather cold, hurry to your house, Mizuki.”

“Yes. Not good for the body if it's too cold.”

The two had a conversation not important and walking side by side on the street.

So, right before the entrance mizuki's house, Misaki suddenly laughed.

“What's wrong?”

“Sorry, it's okay.”

Misaki shook her head with a smile on his face under Mizuki's question.

“I just thought, walk together like this are truly happy. Then suddenly I laughed. Me really strange.”

“Nothing strange. If you feel happy, then laugh a little more. You laugh, I really do too happy."

"...Ok, accept love"

After saying that, Misaki holding Mizuki's hand tightly. And his hands were slim to the point disturbing, but the warmth of those hands made Mizuki breathe a sigh of relief.

The two walked home join hands and light the kotatsu in the living room. Stretching my feet onto the bed, I finally felt a calming warmth.

At this moment, Misaki, who curled up in the same kotatsu as Mizuki, gently pulling up his sleeves Mizuki twice.

"Mizuki"

"What is it?"

"I want to see the album your photo"

"You're talking about this after you warm up in the kotatsu for a while. By the way, isn't it you just saw it before?"

“Yes I have seen it. But I still want to watch it, I want to watch it with Mizuki.”

Mizuki's tone was slight surprised, and Misaki responded with a smile.

Saying "I want to see it with you" with a smile on his face it was a bit cunning. As boyfriend, if you are begged by your boyfriend like this, there is absolutely no way to refuse. Mizuki completely lost Misaki's smile, rising from kotatsu, and took out a photo album in his room.

Putting albums on the table kotatsu, Mizuki and Misaki started flipping through the album slowly, side by side.

His father died early, and his mother was also busy working, so there weren't many photos of Mizuki from childhood to adolescence. However, no matter which one, Misaki narrowed her eyes with pity and careful attention.

"Mizuki, when you were little, you are a better cute kid than Scissorhands."

"Are you insulting me in the dark, and now I'm a dark man?"

"This Mizuki is covering up half eyes. This Mizuki poses as a special hero, very funny!"

“You don't need to show it.”

Mizuki was embarrassed and a little itchy. His condition is exactly the same as Misaki in the morning.

However, a smile on Mizuki's mouth never stops.

It must be because of an important person it smiled like a flower beside him.

Because Misaki is bright and bright, Mizuki won't throw away his smile.

“...Also, Yoko-san smiled healthy in photos.”

However, Misaki's words were accidentally made Mizuki feel completely different from before.

He averted his gaze from the photo to Misaki, who was also looking at Mizuki.

"When we talk each other during summer vacation, Mizuki, didn't you say something like this. Although death will take away important things, it doesn't means no one is left behind. "Lost" planted by people those who go will be rooted in the hearts of those who grieve."

"Well, I said so. My mother's mind is still alive in my heart. I believe that."

Mizuki nodded with really mean Misaki's question. Because he has a feeling, Misaki want to say something important.

Under Mizuki's gaze, Misaki "Then..." continue.

“After I leave, will I leaving something in Mizuki's heart? What can I leave you?”

“Misaki...”

After thinking about what occurring after Misaki's absence, Mizuki's expression turned into a layer fog.

However, what to see Misaki was definitely not Mizuki's gloomy expression. So he puffed out his chest and answer with confidence.

"When I'm preparing for a cultural festival, someone said that I had changed after the second semester, and that I became more approachable..."

"Is that what it says your classmate?"

"Yes. Looks like I'm growing little alone. Also, my growth from meeting you, Misaki. You, Misaki, who pulled me out of the lonely cocoon."

Yes. If I don't meeting Misaki, I won't get comments like that from my classmates. And——I don't even know how it feels fall in love.

"This is not a question about what you can leave me. Misaki, you have changed me fundamentally."

"I'm certain."

Misaki curled up beside Mizuki with a calm expression.

The weight and warmth he is lean back makes Mizuki feel Misaki's presence, and her mood be calm.

"So..."

Misaki's voice attracted Mizuki's consciousness back to the real world. Looking beside him, Misaki looked at Mizuki like peeking.

“I don't have one your photo with Mizuki.”

“He said...it's true.”

Rethinking half years from the meeting until now, Mizuki nodded slowly.

Mizuki himself doesn't have one photo habits, so he didn't realize it at all.

“Then why don't we take photos?”

“...Hmm. Ok”

Mizuki did not refute the suggestion Misaki.

In his mind, action leaving the photo comes with considerable risks.

With Misaki taking steps first, this photo of two people can add sadness and change the tide become river.

However, more than that, Mizuki wants to fulfill all Misaki's wishes. Mizuki wants to leave evidence that he once lived with Misaki, even though it made him feel like he didn't bearable.

Misaki took out her cell phone and open the camera software.

They both looked at the screen and pressed their bodies tightly, and Misaki said, "Okay, eggplant" and pressed the cover.

After a sound explosion electronic, the photos taken are displayed on the screen. Medium Misaki operating his cell phone, staring at the photo he had just taken.

Soon, Misaki said to Mizuki with a cheerful voice with a smile on his face.

“Mizuki, you really don't it's on camera! I always feel that your face looks very bad.”

Misaki says “look” and handed Mizuki the photo on the phone to look at. In photo The one next to Misaki, who was smiling brightly, was a child a man with a melancholic face.

Mizuki immediately turned away his head.

"...I know. Let just,"

Mizuki muttered in tone awkward when the sore part itself is completely punctured.

Maybe because it reflects his introverted personality, Mizuki becomes less and less photogenic as he goes along increasing age. This is also the reason for the lack of photos. It comes down to the point where you can't even watch it. Therefore, after Junior High School, Mizuki, apart from graduation photos, none remaining photos.

Misaki couldn't stop laughed, and gently stroked Mizuki's cheek with his hand.

"Mizuki, you must a little more confident. Even though you may look a little young, but Mizuki you are really handsome. If you are generous, you will definitely make yourself more photogenic."

“Is that true?"

"Really so. Just believe what your boyfriend says. Mizuki is handsome, I know best."

Misaki emphasized with confident.

And because Misaki is so cute, Mizuki seems fine. He already wanted to spend almost an hour to tell how funny his girlfriend is.

At this moment, Misaki suddenly leaned his head on Mizuki's shoulder, and he was no longer satisfied with just that side by side.

"Hey, Mizuki. I've thought recently. 'I want to hug you more' or whatever."

"Misaki...?" 

“Before I was with you, I thought even though I can only live for one year, that's enough. After all my wish was fulfilled, that was enough... But after being with you, Mizuki, I really happy. ...I want to curl up more by your side.”

"I'm greedy." Misaki leaned his head on Mizuki's shoulder and smiled weakly.

"But, greedy no nothing. I want to live. I don't want to die. I don't think so, isn't it good..."

"...How can it be bad? My mind is the same as yours."

Seeing Misaki laugh weakly, Mizuki also confessing his feelings as if he was pouring out everything.

And when the truth comes out, Mizuki remembered Kensuke's face.

Kensuke, he should overcome these feelings and prepare mentally. However, even now, he still haven't decided to live in a world without Misaki.

I want to be with Misaki for a long time restofmylife. I want him to live forever, and I want him not to leaving himself.

Maybe because of that feeling it's actually revealed, and that kind of feeling keeps coming up.

“May I ask one another thing?”

At this moment, Misaki's voice echoed in Mizuki's ears. Among the feelings that keep appearing, sound Misaki was the only one who resonated in my heart like a clear bell.

“What do you want this time?”

“I want to hear you playing harmonica.”

“OK. Easy.”

After answering, Mizuki said, “Wait a moment.”.

When Mizuki came back with harmonica, Misaki leaned on it again.

I feel like Misaki is a little flirtatious today. Because what is usually pampered is himself, Mizuki feel quite fresh.

Overall, after Mizuki ready, he inhaled the harmonica and started playing clear notes.

And the song Mizuki played, of course, it was a song played on Misaki's first day visiting the house that. This melody was passed down from father to mother, and then inherited by Mizuki, is a very important thing.

Misaki, who was leaning on Mizuki, close his eyes calmly and listen quietly.

"Blow on me again"

"Yes"

After Mizuki finished playing a song, Misaki immediately asked to listen return. Mizuki nodded and played the same note again.

A melodious voice echoed again in a quiet house. This gives the illusion that the house is singing. House it caters to the music played by Mizuki who lives here, and both played in concerts.

Mizuki followed the words Misaki and started playing again for the third time. And this time, Harmonica became a great musical instrument, helping Mizuki's performance.

"...OK, thank you, Mizuki. It's okay. I remember it well. Mizuki, your music is good, and this family melody is good."

Mizuki was a little out of breath after finishing the fifth performance, and Misaki thanks him.

In response, Mizuki slowly shook his head.

"You don't need to worry about that. Also, even in the future, no matter how many times I will blow it up on you, please be my audience no matter how many times."

"Yes. Thank You."

Misaki smiled happily and say thank you again.

Seeing his smile, Mizuki didn't can hold his mood again.

How long can I stay with Misaki? 

How many times can I see misaki's smile again?

Mizuki's heart was full of anxiety,

"Misaki..."

"Mmm..."

As if confirming that Mizuki being by his side at this time, Mizuki kissed Misaki's lips.

*

Mizuki dreams.

There's a ward I've seen in my dreams before.

And this time, Mizuki too sharing senses with someone lying in a hospital bed.

In a room with the lights out, the only view you can see is the inner ceiling darkness. Staring at the ceiling, Mizuki crossed someone's mind.

What will I do now if I had taken a bold step that day when I was told that time was short. The first thing to do is travelling. Then, thank your parents well. Important also to face your destiny head-on and be prepared for the moment that. Also, I want to go to school. The school you want to go to it's determined.

And - have to go see people that. To thank him well.

But this is impossible to achieved, these are literally "days only dream". Drawing thoughts on a pure white ceiling, owner this body is crying.

Dreaming of someone who his name is unknown, making Mizuki close his sense of sight. He fall into deeper sleep.

*

After the new year, semester the third will arrive soon.

No, it must be said that the third semester will end in the blink of an eye. Two months have passed since the beginning of the new year. In Mizuki's life, this might be the third semester which feels like the fastest time passes.

“Mizuki, fix this book it's finished.”

“Thank you. Then I will return it to the library along with the book here.”

“Yes, please.”

Pick up a repaired book Misaki, Mizuki left the library.

In the process of walking towards library, Mizuki remembers the events of New Year's Day several times the unknown. 

"What we want to see is his happiness," said Kensuke's expression as he confirmed. 

"I want to live", misaki's expression when she said that. 

For more than two months, the expressions of father and daughter that day rang in Mizuki's mind. 

What should I do for Misaki herself? Must you be mentally ready? Mizuki hasn't given it yet answer. The only thing that can be said is that Mizuki realizing it is more realistic that the day Misaki left him was not long again. 

Misaki looks the same now like he did in the second semester. However, Mizuki didn't know is it really unchanged.

So since that day and furthermore, Mizuki continues, and more than ever, cherishes those days he could spend it with Misaki now. This is the only thing which I haven't prepared myself mentally, the only thing I can do.

Once you realize that the end is getting closer, you will feel more deeply how valuable it can be spending this moment with Misaki now. Do your best to live every day. Can see the world with more honest eyes.

So, every day that it should just turn into a day full of splendor. For Mizuki, facing the inevitable moment of separation, it could be said to be the moment the most satisfying thing in life.

However, it is different from life to his satisfaction, Mizuki's heart was restless. The more fulfilled the days, the reality that Misaki had to go first, made Mizuki's heart so heavy that it was as if there was a large rock on it.

Until now, the world of Mizuki it could be said to be well established because of Misaki's existence.

If Misaki, that's so important, leaving his side... Just thinking about it, Mizuki felt cold. After Misaki left, Mizuki was afraid that her life would continue continues.

“Welcome back, Mizuki. It's hard to deliver the book.”

“Well, that's okay. Nah nothing.”

After Mizuki returned to the library, Misaki, who had packed her equipment, came out to welcome him.

Both are ready to go home, and after returning the keys to the library, they leave school together.

After sending Misaki home, Mizuki returns to her house, turns on the lights and puts down her backpack. On currently. Suddenly he saw a calendar hanging on the wall.

There are many Xs drawn with hands on the calendar. Since the incident on New Year's Day, after at the end of the day, it was Mizuki's habit to draw X on the calendar.

And by the time X was withdrawn, I could actually realize that the time I spent with Misaki one day less, and if I don't wake up, my body will soon losing power. Still, Mizuki couldn't let go of the habit it's, no matter how heavy his mood is, to take note of those days he spent it with Misaki in the right form.

Very aware of value actually from this moment, daily life is satisfying and glowing. Little by little, the days I spent together the people I love most. During the day, I do that it's best to enjoy the little time I have left, and at night, I mourn the unchangeable destiny. Mizuki shed tears in her eyes ahead of the calendar over time during repeated tides and feelings that fluctuate violently.

X on the calendar continues increase.

Before you know it, X has hit the calendar for February. It's March this week front. Winter is almost over, and it's time to hear spring footsteps.

"Oh my God, I hope this X can accumulate forever..."

Mizuki prayed while looking at X which is depicted on the calendar.

*

March 5, Saturday. At the moment The Puppet Festival has passed, Misaki has occupied the kitchen and devoted himself to cook.

And it's not just food normal. Boiled beef, cream gratin, Caesar salad, chocolate cake, line this is quite luxurious.

So why is Misaki trying hard to cook this dish suddenly? That's because today is Mizuki's birthday.

"From now on, to celebrate your birthday, Mizuki, I'll cook. For today, I ask my mother for good special training. So, Mizuki, please come out from kitchen. As the saying goes, a man is far from a cook!"

“Your use of sentences is very wrong... Don't worry about this, then I'll help too, come on we do it together."

"Impossible! Mizuki, you are the protagonist today, I can do it myself. Mizuki, just do something you like and wait for!”

Kicked out of the kitchen by Misaki saying so, it was about two hours ago. Misaki call in the morning. Saying "I have something to do, I'll go to your place around two", and then he suddenly came to Mizuki's house with lots of ingredients in both hands. Mizuki thinks he is want to do something at first.

"To have it again years at times like this..."

Mizuki looked from the outside to towards Misaki, who was in danger in the kitchen, but continued cooking with happy, he grumbled.

Of course, Misaki is very happy to celebrate his birthday.

However, in February last year, Misaki was told by doctors that her time was short and if the situation is bad, it probably won't last for a year.

And it's already months March. After that, it is not surprising that something happened day. If so, is there anything else to do?

Whether it's joy or sorrow, it's difficult for Mizuki to judge now.

but--.

“As expected of me!”

Seeing Misaki brag about the taste of the stew, Mizuki's expression suddenly softened.

Time is short, Misaki knows everything well. And it is precisely based on this that Misaki offers to fulfill his wishes. Moreover, this desire is not for people different, but for Mizuki himself... In this case, respect his wishes is the choice Mizuki must make.

Actually, Mizuki really wanted to talk more with Misaki, but she tries her best to hold it.

But in some ways, patience is almost at its limit.

"I always feel hungry just by looking at it..."

The aroma of delicious stew comes from the kitchen, which made Mizuki's index finger move. If possible, Mizuki I even want to immediately sneak into the kitchen to taste it.

When Mizuki was struggling against this desire, the cheerful voice "Okay! Finished!" suddenly came from kitchen.

"Voyeur Mizuki-san, you should understand after peeking for so long. The dish is ready. This still a little early, why don't you start celebrating?"

Misaki suddenly stuck out his head came out of the kitchen and asked with a smile.

Mizuki nodded like a child little whose joke was discovered.

"Okay. I already smell good, my stomach is flat."

"Okay! By saying that, I will forgive your voyeurism. Yeah, sorry, but can I trouble you to bring me a plate?"

"Okay. I'm very happy"

"Thank You"

When Mizuki suddenly standing up, Misaki smiled happily.

Mizuki brought stew, gratin, caesar salad, and French bread as a staple from the kitchen to the room guest. During this time, Misaki placed candles on the cake she had ornamental.

The table in the living room is stacked tall with food made by Misaki herself.

This is the first time in his life for Mizuki to celebrate his birthday like that many. Seeing as this food was made just for himself, Mizuki can't help but be untouched.

“Then let's light the candle, and you'll blow it when I'm done singing the song birthday.”

“You have to do things kind of this well.”

“Of course! Ah, yes, even if I sing badly, you will. Don't laughing at me. Also, you have to accompany me with the harmonica. I still too embarrassed to sing the a cappella yourself."

"What do you mean for blowing seventeen candles as soon as I finish playing the harmonica? This what a difficult request."

"It's okay, no nothing, Mizuki, you can definitely do it!"

Misaki clenched her fists and said "Come on" to encourage Mizuki.

After Mizuki took out the Harmonica, Misaki lights a candle and turns off the lights in the living room.

“Three, two, one!”

Following Misaki's orders, Mizuki started playing melodies on the harmonica.
Misaki also sang loudly.

"Happy birthday for you. Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday dear Mizuki. Happy birthday to you!"

Clear melody of misaki's slightly misaligned harmonica and tone echoed in the living room.

After Misaki finished singing, he immediately gave orders to Mizuki while that voice there's still left. 

“Now Mizuki, blow the candles!”

At Misaki's insistence, Mizuki blew candle before he could catch his breath. 

After the candles are extinguished and the room dimming for a moment, Misaki turned on the lights. 

“Mizuki, I say happy seventeenth birthday!” 

“Thank you.” 

Seeing Misaki clap her hands excessively, Mizuki also smiled shyly and lowered her head his head. 

"Then! Re-song the year is over. Let's eat. It would be a shame if the food was cold."

“Yes, then——itadakimasu.”

After putting his hands together to salute, Mizuki stretched out his chopsticks towards the stew.

The aroma of the warm stew spreads on Mizuki's empty stomach. The materials are cut into large pieces too gives full marks to the taste. Beef marinated in the gravy melts in one sip on the tongue. 

After tasting the stew beef for a moment, it's the gratin's turn. Put the spoon in the grater which was charred, and the white sauce overflowed. It is sent to the mouth with macaroni, and it's hot in the mouth. After cooling in his mouth for a while, Mizuki enjoy the gratin taste. And it has a very different strong taste from stew. 

Although the cooking method is a bit scary, that particular training doesn't seem to be a joke. Not care what dish, it was delicious enough that no one complained. 

“Even if you don't devour it too much, the food will not run away.” 

“I know, but it's very delicious so I can't stop.” 

Seeing Misaki's smile, Mizuki answer with confidence.

There are so many delicious foods before their eyes. It would be better to say that there is none way to eat slowly. 

Mizuki thought while eat. I really met the best couple in the world .. 

Although this is not the first the time I thought like this, Mizuki felt this reality once again when chewing food.

After the meal was almost finished, Mizuki tasting cakes made by Misaki herself. The sweetness of the chocolate is just right, that's the taste Mizuki likes.

"Mizuki, how? Even though the sponge cake was bought from outside, I think the decoration is beautiful. Delicious right?" 

“Yes, if I could summing it up in one sentence... it is a sense of happiness.”

Hearing that Mizuki is very serious so that he can no longer express his feelings seriously, Misaki looked surprised.

However, I don't know if he immediately thought it was funny, he laughed "what is this?". 

"Mizuki, what's that taste happiness'? Is that delicious?" 

"Not only is it delicious, but also happy that I will go to heaven. This is better than any cake ever I ate all this time. Eat it." 

“You're exaggerating. Well, if you're very happy, I'm happy too.” 

Mizuki's excessive praise made Misaki blush. 

At this moment, as if thinking of something, Misaki said, "Wait a moment" and walked over get out of the living room.

Mizuki looked at the sliding door dan wonders what's wrong, and Misaki returns in less than a time min. 

He also holds a pocket small paper in his hand. 

"Come on, get! Re-gift your year." 

Mizuki took the paper bag which Misaki gave with a surprised expression. 

Not just delicious food, but even a birthday present for myself.. Lacrimal gland, which has recently become very fragile, seems to be collapsing. 

“May I look at in?” 

“Of course.” 

In front of Misaki who nodding, Mizuki took out the contents of her bag. 

Inside is a small box which is small enough to fit in both hands. Wooden cube. Rivets metal is the focal point of the design, which looks like a treasure chest antique. It's pretty trendy as a gift. But... 

"Misaki, this box is not openable..."

Mizuki looked confusedly at him Misaki.

That's right. Small key but smoothly embedded in the box lock. This way you can't look into the box.

So, Misaki nodded with natural expression.

“That's because it's locked.”

“By the way, would you gave me the key?”

“Yet.”

Hearing words is full of meaning Misaki, Mizuki couldn't hold her breath.

Not yet. Top note of this sentence, based on the status quo, should only be that one.

The contents of this box——are misaki's legacy.

"Misaki"

When he regained consciousness, Mizuki had hugged Misaki tightly.

As if confirming misaki—'s whereabouts to ensure that he now lives by her side, felt his warmth with his whole body.

“Mizuki, you really like it act like a spoiled child. If you're like this, it's going to be very difficult after I left.”

“Today is a birthday my year. At least that's all, I'm sorry for being too selfish alone.”

“....Um.”

Misaki gently caressed mizuki's head with his hands. That feeling made Mizuki feel comfortable from the bottom of his heart.

How wonderful it would be if time stop at this point. Mizuki prayed in her heart.

However, time is merciless passed from minute to minute. The hourglass in Misaki's heart, the sand called life, perhaps falling mercilessly.

As if he wanted to prevent Misaki disappearing, Mizuki hugged him tighter.

*

After the birthday party, Mizuki and Misaki left the house together.

Since it was so dark, I wanted to send Misaki home.

Even though it's March, air the night is still bone-chilling. Even though he was already wearing clothes enough, the cold still penetrated his skin.

However, maybe because it's not as bright as a big city, the stars are clearly visible. Both walk holding hands, looking up at the night sky.

“So beautiful! The sky like filled with gems.”

“Oh! Misaki is very rare say something childish.. Starry sky really beautiful.”

“...Mizuki, did you invite fight?"

“Sorry, I'm kidding. Because Misaki with shining eyes is very cute, I want to tease you a little."

After a conversation like the comic ends, Mizuki and Misaki sitting on a bench in a nearby park. Both silently looking at the night sky.

Twinkling stars in the cold winter sky it seems to slowly change as time goes by. Even if you stare at him all the time, you don't will get bored of seeing it. The two looked at each other silently, to while entrusting their hearts to the natural art created by nature.

Hold the hand of your loved one and look at the stars. Mizuki couldn't help but think, how the luxury of this time.

He meets Misaki, falls love, and declare their love for each other, and that's the day this. Even if it's just a small mistake, it shouldn't be possible get a gift that is so happy. Thinking about this, Mizuki was very feeling that being able to live in the moment is a great miracle in itself.

Thinking about this, Mizuki suddenly remembered that a character in a novel or somewhere once said "I live in this world to meet you".

Honestly, Mizuki looked this sentence with a somewhat negative view.

He smiled wryly and said, "How is that possible?"

Live to meet someone just the result of beautifying the meeting. What he lives for, p this kind can only be answered at the time of death. On the path of life, you obviously don't know what lies ahead, so how can you know the meaning walking the path of life.

Even if he parted ways with the other party, the character will definitely live the rest of his life in a way normal. And then fall in love with someone again. In overall, even if there is a crossroads between your own life and the lives of others, the intersection itself cannot be the end your life.

Mizuki thought so the moment that.

However, now, Mizuki has little understanding of the character's mood.

Of course now he doesn't thinking his life exists only to meet Misaki.

However, the fact that he met Misaki and falling in love are enough goals in her life. I didn't live to meet Misaki, but the fact that I met Misaki and fell love has become the most important thing in my life as a result.

Mizuki sincerely thanked love Misaki for giving him these feelings as a gift.

Only now. Misaki looked up at the night sky and said.

"Mizuki"

"Yes"

"It's great to be able to celebrate your birthday well at the end. I will not forget the day this. - No, not just today. Since I met you, until now I will never forget the beautiful memories of my life."

"Finally... Misaki, don't say unlucky words like that. Next year or the following year, I will ask you to celebrate my birthday. Besides, I want to too give It's your birthday. So, don't say things like that last,"

mizuki said in a mood prayerful.

Mizuki didn't want to hear the "last" word from Misaki's mouth. Because when I think about gift just now, that sounds like the last word.

However, Misaki just smiled problematic.

Misaki let go of Mizuki's hand, get up from the bench, and walk forward with small steps.

“Misaki, wait for me!”

Mizuki hurriedly followed, and hugging Misaki from behind. Mizuki had a feeling that if he didn't doing this, Misaki might just disappear from before him.

“Please, don't go anywhere. Don't disappear in front of me.”

“...Sorry, I can't do it again. Mizuki, you know that too.”

said Mizuki desperately, meanwhile, Misaki just persuaded Mizuki and answered in a flirtatious tone.

Misaki let go of Mizuki's arm and turned towards him. Immediately, he raised his eyes and looked at Mizuki with a gentle smile.

"But... that's also true. - Well, so! Then I have an appointment with you. Whatever the shape, I definitely am will celebrate Mizuki's birthday next year. So, don't be sad."

Misaki gently tiptoed and kissed Mizuki's lips. Just like the proof of this agreement.

But for Mizuki, he just can feel that this kiss is Misaki's last gift.

*

Mizuki dreams.

The location is the ward, and the season is winter.

Mizuki shares her senses with someone like before—there was excruciating pain coming from his chest currently.

This is painless unbearable that I have never experienced in my life so far this. Consciousness blurs every few seconds.

And in Mizuki's mind, that is enduring this pain, there are thoughts that one regrets.

Your choice was wrong.

The day I was told that time is short, I have to make the right choice.

In this case, even if the ending cannot be changed, it may change the process towards end. Maybe I can say "thank you" well to that person.

If this is the case, I definitely am won't be as sorry as I am now, and I will be able to face it the arrival of death in peace and quiet.

Mizuki's mind was full of thoughts that will never end no matter how he is regret it. That he felt so sorry that he was pretending accept his fate, but have actually given up everything.

Therefore, he prayed deeply regret.

If I could, if I could started everything from that day.

Amidst severe pain in his chest, only that desire continued to resonate in Mizuki's mind.

*

On the second day of Mizuki's birthday, namely Sunday morning. The call came.

Name of caller shown on the phone screen is Kensuke Fujieda. It was Misaki's father. Moment visiting Misaki's house in the New Year, Mizuki temporarily exchanges contact information with him.

When I saw the name, I felt a chill that something was starting to fall apart.

With trembling fingers, he connected the phone, and Kensuke's voice came from the other end.

To be honest, I basically don't remember what I said and what Kensuke said. The only thing I remember is the name of the hospital, dan——

"This morning, Misaki fall."

Just that.

Mizuki hangs up and rush out of the house. He got on a bicycle and ran across the road with high speed.

When riding a bicycle, mizuki's mind haunted what happened that day two years ago.

That day - my mother's day died, I couldn't catch up.

The touch of mother's hand that has been lost the temperature again.

Maybe I can't catching up like that day again? Are you going to do the same mistake again?

Mizuki rushed to the hospital with tears in her eyes.

Misaki was taken to hospital the same one where he was hospitalized for a year then. For Mizuki, it was also a hospital he often visited when his mother was hospitalized, and so intimate that he could no longer know him.

Mizuki rushed past gate and up the stairs, towards the seventh floor he heard on telephone. After reaching the seventh floor with a breath of breath, he rushed out of the hall.

"Mizuki"

Kensuke is waiting mizuki's arrival in the lobby. Seeing Mizuki panting, he walked over with a stiff expression.

“Misaki...Misaki, is she fine!”

Mizuki asked as if trying grabbed Kensuke.

Kensuke reassures Mizuki by saying, "Calm down," and turning around.

"Let's go first. Ke there."

After saying that, Kensuke leading Mizuki forward.

The place where Mizuki was taken is - intensive care unit area.

The nurse waits in front of the area, Mizuki and Kensuke are taken to a room ready to enter ward. At this time, according to nurses, due to strong demand from people misaki's old man, Mizuki, was also allowed to enter the ward.

After making the preparations mature according to the nurse's instructions, Mizuki and Kensuke enter the unit intensive care after examination.

Misaki lay down quietly in the intensive care unit ward.

Mizuki stood aside bed, looking at sleeping Misaki.

"Even though we're out of danger for now, we don't know if we can wake up. Doctor too tells us to prepare ourselves mentally. Misaki's mother was exhausted, and now lie down in the waiting room."

Kensuke stood beside Mizuki calmly said.

Mizuki continued to listen deeply silent.

I don't know if I can wake up again. Prepare mentally.

The words clearly reached his ears, but it didn't reach his mind at all. It's like the brain refuses to understand the meaning of words.

No, it must be said, refuse to accept reality.

If he really accepts these words, Mizuki would probably faint and cry on the spot.

The meeting ended after about ten minutes, Mizuki and Kensuke leave the intensive care unit together.

“I'll see how misaki's mother's condition. How aboutyou?”

“...Let me rest in here.”

After returning to the hall, Mizuki could only answer Kensuke's question with a blank expression.

After Kensuke leaves, Mizuki slumped in the waiting chair in the hall alone.
Misaki just celebrated her birthday yesterday, and is thinking about it now it feels like it's been a long time.

"Misaki...Misaki..."

Mizuki trembled and cried while continuing to call Misaki's name.

Until Misaki's parents back, Mizuki was still sitting limply on the chair, praying for Misaki's recovery.

But——In the end, Misaki didn't wake up that day, and after the meeting time ended, Mizuki had to go home.

"Um...can I come tomorrow morning? It doesn't matter if I can't see it like today. The day after tomorrow, until Misaki wakes up..."

When they parted ways, Mizuki asked Kensuke, who had come to see him off, in a tone beg.

Mizuki wants to stay with Misaki even for a minute. Because Mizuki believes that he will wake up, and want to wait beside him all the time——.

However, Kensuke shook his head his head was at Mizuki's request.

"Mizuki, I understand your feelings. However, you can't waste your life on this. You must go to school well."

"But if something happens when I'm at school—"

Thoughts that cross your head Mizuki was an incident two years ago.

My mother died while he was still school. So, if Misaki too..

Mizuki begs Kensuke with bitter when discomfort such as gradual psychological trauma shadowing himself.

However, Kensuke still installed it angry face and shook his head again.

"Sorry, Mizuki. But can we keep our family together for a while. If something happens, I will definitely contact you."

After hearing the words Kensuke, Mizuki wanted to say something else, but before speaking, lowered his head helplessly.

Can we look after the family we together?

When father was in front of him saying such words, Mizuki could only do what he did say.

Because Mizuki had taken it the time they spent with Misaki all this time.

"...So. I'm sorry for saying something so stupid..."

"I'm the one who has to ask sorry, I can't satisfy your feelings, I'm really sorry."

said Kensuke, who has angry face, lowered his head.

"Then I will say goodbye first..."

Mizuki leaves the house ill.

Mizuki doesn't even have one the power to ride a bicycle, and stagger down the night road the dark.

Misaki's face, which was heavy on the hospital, and Kensuke's expression looking at him with an angry face filled his thoughts.

Mizuki wasn't angry because prohibited by Kensuke from visiting a doctor.

Without knowing how long it will take Misaki will fight the disease, what will happen if Mizuki doesn't leave to school and go to the hospital every day? Depending on the situation, it might have an impact on Mizuki's future.

Kensuke took on this role to protect Mizuki's future.

Mizuki is very clear about this, including the problem of getting himself into the intensive care unit, he just a simple outsider like his daughter's boyfriend, and Kensuke really is disturb him in such a way. Thank you very much.

But... even so, Mizuki remains want to be by Misaki's side. Rather than an unimaginable future, Mizuki still want to appreciate the time he and Misaki can spend together just at present time.

Even if it's a stupid choice, Mizuki still want to choose this path.

"Mother...Misaki..."

Mother's smile and Misaki's smile came to mind.

Just like when my mother died. Would you lose someone as important as this again? Can't even accompany him until the last moment, can only crying before the result of "death"?

Staring at the stars in night sky, Mizuki regrets his helplessness.

*

The days after that are dry and bland days for Mizuki. Even though he went to school with Kensuke, he is absent-minded in class, and his mind is full of Misaki.

Five days have passed since Misaki fainted. Today's class was also very peaceful. Even if he leaves, the class is still repeating a stable routine.

In these fading days, the calm itself started to make Mizuki feel a little anxious.

At a Monday morning class meeting, guardian the class only conveyed brief news that Misaki would be on leave for a while time. Even though there was a bit of commotion in class at first, but now after five days, both classmates and the homeroom teacher have returned to usual circumstances. It seems everyone has accepted life everyday without Misaki.

Doesn't that mean Misaki no need to exist in this world?

The atmosphere in class today makes it hard for Mizuki not to think so.

Of course, Mizuki knew too that this was just a kind of delusion of his own persecution.

Everyone for sure worrying Misaki. After all, unlike Mizuki, Misaki is a hit big in class.

Mizuki is well aware of things this.

However, to protect his heart which would be filled with anxiety, Mizuki could only fill her heart with feelings stronger.

After school, Mizuki leave school early.

I've never been to library this week. Mizuki is not at all interested in working as a member of the library committee. However, the librarian teacher also said to himself, "It's important to take a break every once in a while," so maybe it doesn't matter.

However, Mizuki has undergone it life lived in the library until the end of school time so far, so even when he got home, he was too busy to panic. Mizuki want to prepare for English next week first, so he took out his textbooks and notebooks from his backpack and put them on table top.

At this time, the phone is in my pocket the uniform suddenly rang.

After taking it out with in a hurry, Misaki's father, Kensuke, called.

"...Hello"

"Hello, Mizuki? I'm Misaki's father. Is it okay to call you now?”

“Well, I'm home. Misaki... what's wrong?”

Kensuke will call himself himself, it must have something to do with Misaki.

The question is whether news is good or bad.

Mizuki swallowed and waited kensuke's words.

"...About two hours ago then, Misaki woke up."

"!Really!?"

Kensuke said to himself myself that even though it was short, it was good news.

Facing Mizuki's confirmation, Kensuke once again emphasized in short words "right".

After the doctor assessed that Misaki will most likely never wake up again, Misaki still wakes up.

This is a miracle. Mizuki can't help but cry.

"He's still conscious now. Although it's embarrassing to say this suddenly, can you come to the hospital immediately? Misaki, he said...I want to meet with you no matter what.”

“Of course! I'll go to there.”

After Mizuki answered the call Kensuke, Mizuki hang up, prepare in a hurry, and leave the house.

I rode my bike as hard as I did on Sunday and headed to the hospital. However this time, the atmosphere is very different from Sunday.

After arriving at the hospital, Misaki waits for him there, and he can talk to Misaki.

Mizuki rides the pedal with despair with the power of joy, not of fear and anxiety.

After arriving at the hospital, Mizuki rush through the gate, take the elevator just in time, and rush to the seventh floor where Misaki is.

After exiting the elevator and arriving at the lobby, as on Sunday, Kensuke and Misaki's mother, Izumi, were waiting Mizuki.

"Have you waiting for me? Thank you very much."

said Mizuki lightly, walking to the direction of Misaki's parents. Misaki's joy when she wakes up can be seen from the sound and Mizuki's attitude.

“...It's okay, don't worried about it.”

Seeing Mizuki like that, Kensuke answered with a stiff smile on his exhausted face.

Beside him, Izumi too lowered his head in great distress.

"That...Mi...Misaki has wake up?"

"Mm. Misaki is awake, that's right. It's just..."

Mizuki asked suspiciously, and Kensuke confirmed it again, but he didn't.

Thinking about it like this, when he received the call earlier, his appearance was not very precise. Dan now, judging from the faces of the two people in front of him, he couldn't feel peace and joy from the awakened Misaki.

So Mizuki finally... realized that he had misunderstood.

Misaki didn't overcome difficulty, but exhausted his last strength and woke up like bright light. And Misaki's parents called Mizuki in a hurry to allow Mizuki to complete a final breakup with Misaki.

“Mizuki, this way.”

Under Kensuke's insistence, the three walked towards the intensive care unit together.

Just like last time, misaki and Mizuki's parents entered the intensive care unit together below nurse instructions to get ready.

Before reaching Misaki's room, Kensuke placed his hand on Mizuki's shoulder.

“Maybe this is what I feel when I saw my daughter get married..I'll leave the rest to you.”

Kensuke's words echoed in clean and disappearing corridors.

The rest is up to you.

This sentence only has one meaning. Misaki's parents entrust Mizuki with important tasks for watching Misaki leave. I'm afraid, this is Misaki's wish alone...

That might be possible rejected. He said he couldn't bear such a heavy responsibility.

However, ——

"i understand"

Mizuki just said that, and nodded in response.

Mizuki won't escaped. Because even today, I still want to be with Misaki until last moments.

Hearing Mizuki's firm answer, Kensuke also let go of his hand as a sign of agreement. Soon, he make way for Mizuki. Under the supervision of Misaki's parents, Mizuki opened the closed door and entered the room where Misaki was.

*

The room was as quiet as it was last time I came.

All that can be heard is electronic sound from the machine.

Misaki was lying on bed, only his eyes were open. Compared to five days then, he looked thinner. He probably doesn't even have the strength to wake.

However, after seeing Mizuki entering, Misaki moved her head and smiled gently.

"...Hello, Mizuki, me haven't seen you for five days."

"Yes. You really long sleep. Misaki."

Answered Misaki while smiling, Mizuki sat on the chair beside the bed.

At this time, Misaki stretched out his hand from under the blanket.

His hands are very thin and slim. Mizuki wrapped Misaki's hand in her own.

"Mizuki, I'm sorry. My body has really reached its limit. I'm really sorry."

"Don't apologize. With this way you won't be like you, Misaki."

Facing Misaki who continues apologizing, Mizuki held back her anger, sad, laughing.

Also, it's not Misaki who should apologize. Instead, it should be itself. Mizuki think so.

Mizuki didn't think that misaki's disease had worsened to such an extent all at once. With words else, Misaki must be patient with herself. So that Mizuki doesn't worried, he gritted his teeth and endured the torment of illness.

Although this is the case, he completely unaware of Misaki's efforts. He tried his best to against the fear surging in his heart, but he couldn't continue looking at Misaki in front of him.

Really a boyfriend who doesn't competent. Mizuki felt embarrassed.

When Mizuki sighed because inability, Misaki suddenly looked at the ceiling and muttered, "Isn't that like me..."

"Hey, Mizuki. I...for do I live in this world? For what?"

A gaze that leads the ceiling switched directly to Mizuki, and Misaki asked a question to him.

"...Why, my life has to be ends here. Why am I the only one who has to bear the burden of disease helpless? It's okay if it's not me. Why is my life the only one? Nah anything to exchange? I've been hospitalized for a long time for a long time, I couldn't be friends for a long time, I just could lower your head and live a gloomy life... Obviously everyone healthy and that is normal. Why am I the only one who has to suffer like this?"

This is the thought that has been Misaki carried it for almost eighteen years of her life. This is sincere words he hid in his heart, but he couldn't expressed it because of the people around him. Now, he's finally tell everything.

"I've been thinking. Because I wasn't destined to live long because of this disease. Then, what the meaning of my life in this world... Mizuki, what am I living for? How about this world?”

Because Misaki cares more with the thoughts of the people around him rather than anyone else, he couldn't ask this question to anyone. But now, he finally asking for the first time in his life, to his favorite partner.

And Mizuki, who knows things this well, no longer regretting his helplessness, and answering the question is sincere.

"That's right.. I think——it's not just you, Misaki, no matter who lives well, you basically can't find any special meaning."

Mizuki's answer to the question Misaki Really has no cure.

After hearing that, Misaki laugh weakly.

"Now you at least saying 'This is to meet me'. You are my girlfriend."

"I can't say it. Because I don't want to lie to you."

"There are white lies in this world, you know?”

"White lies, deep many cases, only good for liars. It's just to hide unspeakable truth."

"Well, I don't deny it. But don't say that to someone who will die."

"This boyfriend really..."

Misaki smiled helplessly.

Mizuki still smiled calmly on his face and continued to answer Misaki's questions.

"Well, forget the lies white, birth and life are basically meaningless. That's why everyone is trying to find 'my life has meaning!' Convincing reason and fight tooth and nail, right?"

Mizuki couldn't give "answer" to Misaki's question.

So, in the end, it just Mizuki's "answer". This is just some kind of assessment material for the goal of getting the real "answer".

"So, if you want know the meaning of your life, Misaki... please try your best to make excuses for yourself. This must be the unique meaning of your life, Misaki."

"Mizuki is very strict. It for reference, Mizuki, what excuses do you use for your life alone?"

"I thought ..."

Facing counterattacks Misaki, Mizuki looked at the clean white ceiling of the ward and thought hard.

However, he immediately smiled embarrassed, and his eyes returned to Misaki.

"I'm sorry. Even though I saying it so loudly, in fact, I haven't found it yet reason. However, my heart is full of important people - my parents, and the things you left me, Misaki... So, as long as I appreciate and keeping these things in check, I might be able to convince myself."

While apologizing for inaccuracies, Mizuki temporarily gave a "mock answer" his own.

Misaki was a little surprised the answer.

“Treasure, what is i left...?”

“Well, whether it's a memory I spent it with Misaki, or the way you taught me to enjoy life, Misaki, me will appreciate whatever it is.”

“... Mizuki, are you happy meet me?"

"I'm so happy that my life and values have been changed by you."

"Are you happy with me?"

"I am very happy finally I understand what happiness is."

Mizuki answered smoothly misaki's consecutive questions.

Because this answer is no requires doubt. For Mizuki, time spent with Misaki has become a very important thing.

“That's right. Hmm.—Very good.”

After hearing Mizuki's answer without confusion, Misaki finally smiled. If Mizuki wasn't wrong, his expression was convincing, a happy smile saved by something.

"Thank you, Mizuki. I found my answer. I finally knew that in my life, making a choice again that day ... is a meaningful and valuable thing."

But Misaki doesn't seem to realizing it, still staring at the ceiling. "But, darling once," he said.

"I want to wear a dress very bride. I want to have a wedding at a beautiful church. Ah, but it seems like it would be fun to have a wedding at the temple and wearing Shiromuku."

"I really want to too see what you look like, Misaki, as a bride. Is it's a wedding dress or Shiromuku. I can guarantee that it doesn't matter how you wear it, you will be beautiful."

"I also want to have one child. My desires are men and women. How about you, Mizuki?"

"I just need to stay with you, Misaki. I don't need anything else... And I don't really likes children. I don't think the kids will be close to me."

"You said that, if you really have children, Mizuki, you will definitely worry about them. I thought you'd buy an expensive video recorder, and then I stunned to see you take a growth record for children." 

"Is that so?"

“That's right. Because Mizuki, you is someone who really loves your family. You will definitely be a harmonious family. Well then, let's go for a walk together. Although Mizuki always says that you only have a few photos of yourself, but gradually it will increase. Even if you make excuses and saying ‘I'm not good in front of the camera’, I won't let you go.”

“Should I be happy, or should I be sad..." 

This is a possible situation happen. However, this blueprint for the future is destined for not come. Even though he knew it well, Misaki was happy heart tells Mizuki about "starting now" inside his thoughts. Mizuki meticulously responded "from now on" from Misaki.

“When your daughter grows up, Mizuki, you will be isolated. You will also be a little shunned by your daughter. Then Mizuki, who worry about children, will live a life full of tears every day.”

“Why am I the only one hurt in your future blueprint?”

“It's okay. I will entertain Mizuki well.”

“Well, then you don't need to worry about it.”

Mizuki and Misaki laughed hard.

"But ah, when the kids already past adolescence and growing up, they will become a family big warm and harmonious again. Then the children will bring lovers they're home. They said ‘I have a girlfriend who wants to introduce herself to you’.”

"Even I would be nervous then.”

“When your daughter gets married and being someone else's bride, I thought Mizuki would be embarrassed and cry. Then, ah, I said, “I really can't do anything to you, father my son" to comfort you."

"Sad because I don't can deny. But I will leave it to you at that time."

"Leave itto me.”

Even though Misaki knows that day it wouldn't come, he still agreed in a proud tone. 

Only now. Spokes Misaki suddenly lost strength.

"!Mi...Misaki...?" 

"It's okay...well, it's okay...I just, I just want to sleep..."

Mizuki shouted while squeezing Misaki's hand with both hands. And Misaki answered with weak voice. 

"I'm sorry, .. Me really don't have the strength..." 

"...No. Please don't go. Don't leave me alone!" 

Mizuki thought he wouldn't say it. However, at this moment, an excuse suddenly flew from the sky, and the words came out. Not only that. Mizuki squeezed Misaki's hand harder because he didn't want to lose it.

Even saying things like that would only embarrass Misaki. Mizuki knows.

When he regained consciousness, a voice Mizuki shook. Her tears pooled, wetting her cheeks.

Mizuki's face blurred with a snot and tears in the blink of an eye.

Seeing Mizuki like this, Misaki runs out of her last strength and smiles at him.

"Really... forgive i.. Leaving Mizuki here alone... I'm a boyfriend who doesn't useful..."

"It's not like that! Nah there's something like that!"

"To meet ....Me also very happy.. I could curl up next to Mizuki for seconds last... I am very happy..."

"No, Misaki! Speak a little more, talk to me a little more!"

"Can fall in love with you like this... I'm really grateful..."

Before he could finish his thanks, Misaki's voice stopped. Soon, he closed his eyes, and all his strength disappeared from his body.

"Misaki...?"

Mizuki called him and shook him, but Misaki didn't answer. He didn't tease Mizuki like he was always "I lied to you", nor was he gentle called Mizuki's name.

Misaki's breathing stopped, and even with ears on his chest, he couldn't hear his heartbeat.

"Mi...Misaki..."

Mizuki hugged Misaki's body who looked asleep. His body was still warm. Mizuki didn't believe it that he had died suddenly.

However, Misaki's eyes never did open again. There will be no more sound. Never again, I will holding Mizuki's hand gently.

“Ugh...ah! Ah...!”

After receiving the reality in in his mind, Mizuki's rationality was swallowed by a vortex of emotions.

Mizuki hugged Misaki's body tightly with all his strength, and began to wail like a wild beast, cried until his throat was torn——.

*

A few days later, misaki's funeral was held smoothly.

Although Mizuki attended the vigil and funeral, to be honest, when Misaki died, except for memories about his screams and cries, all the other memories were blurred. If come to think of it, the vigil had begun, and now, the funeral would be imminent end. That's what it feels like.

People at the funeral mourning Misaki's untimely death, with tears in her eyes.

However, among the crowd, only Mizuki's eyes were dry. Not a single tear can spilled. There was nothing left to flow out of Mizuki's heart.

"Mizuki"

After the funeral, Kensuke stop Mizuki.

Mizuki looked at Kensuke with a blank look, and saw him standing there with a withered face. Izumi too stand diagonally behind him. Both of them looked very withered facing their daughter's departure.

However, even in the presence of both that person, Mizuki's heart remained unreacted. His expression was stiff like a mask, and his empty eyes reflected the posture of both of them, that was all.

They both subdued their heads were deep towards Mizuki who looked like a doll.

"Thank you for with Misaki until the last moment. Also, I'm really sorry because makes you responsible for seeing Misaki leave."

Kensuke expresses his feelings his thanks and apologies to Mizuki. The words were full attention to Mizuki.

In fact, Kensuke probably doesn't cares about Mizuki's free time at all. He clearly wanted to spent it with his daughter until the last moment. But though I see, he still cares about Mizuki first.

At this moment, Mizuki's heart it's numb it hurts a little.

"The doctor said that there was no pain when Misaki left. Because of you he can deliver last moment peacefully. Thank you very much for letting Misaki go safely."

Thank you many. These repeated sentences echoed loudly in Mizuki's heart. Pain what grew in my heart gradually turned into a gap that didn't bearable.

"Don't... say things that..."

When he regained consciousness, Mizuki already kneeling on the ground as if he had fainted. He gripped pebbles on the ground, shaking his shoulders, crying.

Feelings that have been lost for several days of erupting at this moment, Mizuki roared.

"If it weren't for me, maybe Misaki can live longer. Even so, don't thank me me. If it weren't for me..."

That's right, he's not someone appropriate for that. thank you.

On the contrary, it will be more it's nice to scold yourself.

“Death of all my daughters because of you!”

“If you don't show up!”

How relieved I would feel if I berate myself like this. In this case, I can pay it immediately with my life without hesitation.

However, Misaki's parents did not do it.

Not only that. Father his girlfriend put her hand on Mizuki's crying shoulder and nodded entertaining.

"Your feelings for Misaki very unforgettable. That alone is enough for us. Thank you very much. So, stop blaming yourself. You're not wrong, nothing wrong."

Their phrase is "you it's not wrong" over and over again. As if to improve mizuki's psychological wounds and making him bounce back..

But—— because of this, Mizuki lowered his head and continued crying as if running away from this tenderness.

*

After returning home after the funeral, Mizuki felt that this place was completely different from previously, and has been a place with a cold atmosphere.

But only ten day. Not long ago, there was indeed warmth in this house.

However, that warmth now been lost. Only the biting cold air remained.

Misaki's sadness lost. Guilt towards Misaki's parents.

Once alone, mood this sad thing continues to torment Mizuki's heart.

And the cold air bites this seems to blame Mizuki for returning alone.

Mizuki couldn't stand it atmosphere at all, and when he regained consciousness, he had already left home.

Towards school.

Mizuki took time off to misaki's funeral, but today is still a working day. Even though school has after that, the sound of students sweating in club activities could still be heard campus, and the sound of musical instruments from the wind club can be heard from the school building.

Ignoring the voices alive and energetic, Mizuki borrows the keys from the office and walks down corridor as usual.

Then, roughly opened lock the library door.

"Welcome back, Mizuki. Difficult to deliver books."

When he opened the door library, memories of spending time with Misaki reappear in his mind, and even hearing his voice, Mizuki groaned, "Ugh...".

With that breath gasping, he walked into the library, opened his laptop, and started doing book registration work that had piled up in numbers many.

“I will install it with good!”

“Mizuki, book repair is done done.”

But, honestly, efficiency the work is very bad. Every time I hold a book in my hand, every time I press the keyboard, I can hear Misaki's voice, and need it several times longer than usual to perform these tasks alone.

Even so, Mizuki remained can't stop. If I don't do something, I will destroyed by the fact that Misaki no longer existed, and at this moment, my heart was already torn apart. Even trying to ransom Misaki's parents, he hit his head against the wall.

Before I knew it, the sun had set in the west, and the voices of the students and musical instruments were outside the window is no longer audible. Looking at the time, it was already half past half six. It's almost time to leave school.

After a while, teacher who finds that the key has not been returned may come to checking.

"...Go home..."

Suddenly, Mizuki turns off computer with subtle feelings.

No matter what you do, you cannot fill the void in your heart. There is no way to escape the sadness of losing Misaki. After realizing this, Mizuki lowered his head in despair.

At this time, the library, which had been swallowed by silence, suddenly sounded a sound electronic. That's the ringtone that announces the arrival of a message.

At first, Mizuki ignore the text message. I'm not in the mood to read any information now.

However, Mizuki immediately felt it meaning of ringtone, and hurriedly picked up the phone.

Because that ringtone—means it it was a text message from Misaki.

"Misaki...?"

Why are there still messages being sent from Misaki even now? Mizuki herself couldn't figure it out. But, in fact, the phone was ringing.

Mizuki opened the text message with trembling fingers.

There are only short sentences in on that message. There is no emotion in the words " On the top floor of the shelf book in your room, see the third book from the right.".

Even so, Mizuki ran get out of the library. Rushed home on a school trip dimly lit after sunset. When he got home, he don't even have time to turn on the lights.

Mizuki staggered to the second floor was in darkness, and seemed to be hit by a pillar or something in the middle. After taking the book according to the instructions Misaki. Something fell off the book and landed on the floor. Bending and take it, it's a small key. Beautiful lock designed with antique style.

And what is this key for used, no need to think about it. Mizuki rushed out of the room and go straight to the living room. This time he turned on the lights in the room well and look at the cupboard with the harmonica. And what he put out from the cupboard is a small box that Misaki gave him on his birthday the year.

Suppressing the urge inside in his heart, Mizuki inserted the key as soon as he found the key in the box that.

With a "click" sound sharp and fun, open lock.

After opening the lid, the unique metallic melody of the music box comes from within. It is mizuki harmonica is played many times.

There seems to be a music box on the corner of the box, and when the lid is opened, it will start to rotate. Then, the rest of the part where the other half puts something, inside is——

"USB?"

Take it from the box and holding it in Mizuki's hand, it was a regular USB flash drive.

What's inside?

Mizuki turns on her computer and insert the USB flash drive as soon as it is turned on. After opening folder, I found that there is only one video in it.

Mizuki held back her hand trembling, double-clicking the file, and the video starts playing.

"Hello, Mizuki, are you watch?”

When he heard his voice and looking at his face, tears rolled down Mizuki's eyes.

On that screen Misaki smiled soft. It was a smile that was very familiar to Mizuki, but she was thought he would never see her again.

"When you see the video this, that means a text message has also been sent. That's great, Mom and Dad had read my dying diary carefully, so I sent you text message."

Misaki heaved a sigh of relief in screen.

Mizuki couldn't say anything nothing, just keep looking at him. No matter what shape it is, Mizuki once again saw Misaki talking to him and looked at him with soft. Just like that, Mizuki's heart was filled.

"So.. Although I can't stop talking nonsense, the USB flash drive capacity will it's finished, so let's get straight to the point."

Misaki cleared her throat on the screen.

"Mizuki, when you see this video, my funeral should be finished as soon as possible maybe. Right? I guessed correctly? That's definitely not it discovered accidentally, and then peek first, right?”

misaki asked on the screen as if justifying facts.

The tone, movement, and pause it was as if he was actually chatting with Mizuki. Misaki maybe made this video after careful calculations.

When Mizuki was thinking at this, Misaki on the screen suddenly looked at him with worried eyes.

"Mizuki, are you sleeping sound? Do you eat well? Although I don't think I see, but are you thinking about following me, right?”

Misaki's worried words made Mizuki hold his breath.

Now I can't sleep restful, and difficult to swallow food. Taking into account the current circumstances, perhaps it was only a matter of time before he followed Misaki. Misaki's worries it's all in one sentence.

"I really worrying you. Mizuki, you usually look nervous, but actually you are very gentle... I'm really afraid you won't think about it a moment and then do something stupid."

Misaki continued, expression his face was the same as his words, it was all worried from the bottom of his heart.

Mizuki listened to everyone said, because of his shame and cowardice, he couldn't help but escape.

After he left, what action what will Mizuki do? Misaki had guessed everything by now that. Even after guessing, Mizuki was still worried Misaki. Misaki died worried. As a boyfriend, no there's something more embarrassing than this.

He clearly wanted to see more misaki had many faces, but Mizuki lowered her head naturally. Me didn't dare look at Misaki.

Rather than appearing in a state bad like that, it's better to just disappear——.

“...Disappear, or die—if you dare do such a stupid thing as run away, I never will let you.”

Mizuki was almost encouraged to escape again. Misaki predicted his thoughts and said firmly.

Overly synchronous circumstances with his own mood, Mizuki raised his head reflex.

Misaki on the screen lifted his eyebrows were dissatisfied and he saw himself.

However, his expression was immediate calm again.

"Mizuki, are you remember? I've been hiding something like you. About why I asked Mizuki to form an alliance with you, remember?"

After reminder Misaki. That being said, in the end, I still haven't gotten it answer to this question.

Can I finally got the answer this time? Mizuki stared at the screen.
After a while, Misaki on the screen said.

“Actually, since I really died, time has returned to the day when I was told last February that my time was running out.”

Misaki said these words suddenly and very seriously.

At this moment, Mizuki heard the sound of the key opened in his mind. At the same time, several scenarios crossed my mind. It was seen in a dream, a person's memory, someone's wish.

- No, not only that. Flashback memories tell Mizuki everything in front. At the end of memories connected by dreams, people who the most beloved is in the upper reaches of the river a long time, a sight extraordinary...

At the same time, Mizuki finally realized. This year, for Misaki, is a journey for create meaning in life.

"You won't believe it what I told you suddenly. I actually don't believe. After going back in time, I don't know what happened, and I fell in front of the doctor. Because of that, the doctor thought I fell because I'm overwhelmed to know that my time is short, but it is hard work. ——Ah, this deviation will be put aside for now this. In short, you have to get rid of the feeling of wanting to complain now, and listen to me carefully. Because this is also the reason why I am come to you to form an alliance."

Misaki on the screen smiled wry, said in a pleading tone, and looked at Mizuki.

However, Misaki's concerns were the same completely unfounded. Mizuki, who already knew the whole situation, didn't doubt it, but accepted his words for who they were.

"Before returning to time then, I just waited for death in a hospital bed, and I always did regret it. So at death, I pray to return to the day when I was told that time was short. And then, even though I don't know why, this prayer really came true."

Misaki's description is exactly the same with what Mizuki saw in the dream.

As for why Misaki's memory before retrospectives were associated with his own dreams, it was the same as retrospective, and the reasons are unclear.

However, Mizuki could understand misaki's mood at that time. If so, I should be grateful for it this miracle now.

"My instincts are direct said that I would die at the same time as that first. So this time, so as not to leave any regrets, I went out from the hospital and sorting out the desires I wanted to end before I died. Because I've been thinking about this in the hospital bed, it probably doesn't take much time. Even though Mizuki and I have spoken a little about that, I think there are five things in total.”

Misaki said so, he snapped his fingers, and started mentioning “his desire to end before death”.

First, thank you to my parents and say, "Thank you for always taking good care of me and raising me as an adult".

Second, travel with your parents.

Third, write a death diary.

Fourth, go to lessons last

Fifth, thank Mizuki.

After all, it is something Mizuki had been told before.

However, there are also things that missed. For example, when Mizuki was accepted to form an alliance, Misaki said "I want to have fun" and "do something I never imagined.".

"However, after I met Mizuki at school, my desires changed again. [Sixth, befriend Mizuki], [Seventh, let Mizuki remember the excitement of playing with friends] [Eighth, let Mizuki remember how to take a playmate out] These three things. I have changed the words for the last two, but I have also told you. Actually, that's what I planned."

Misaki's words made Mizuki's eyes widened in surprise.

In other words, three items all that was left was a wish added for Mizuki's sake.

"At first, I really was just wanted to come and say thank you, thank you for save me. Besides, my time is running out.. However, when I found out that you were hiding in the high wall you built, I remembered the last thing I said to Yoko-san. So I changed my mind and start taking action.”

"With mymother? Could it..."

Mizuki's mind, admitted that the memory of the day was revived.

Even Mizuki begged Misaki to tell him, but Misaki refuses to say "I won't tell you". Maybe, this was the answer at that time.

"I told you previously that after being saved by you, I couldn't get out of ward, right? As a result, after Yoko-san died, I never did see you again. But ah. Actually, after I can leaving the ward, Yoko-san and I met once, only once. The day before Yoko-san died."

Misaki's words once again making Mizuki's eyes widen in surprise. I'm really scared by Misaki today.

The conversation between the two occurred the day before Mizuki's mother died. And it was because of that conversation that Misaki start acting. What did mother entrust to Misaki?

What my mother said to Misaki? Mizuki's heart skipped a beat.

"I still remember it clearly. At that time, Yoko-san rarely said words soft. "Mizuki always suffers. Because my father and I don't handy, let him carry everything alone, make it work too hard. It also robbed him of the time he should have spent making friends. Mizuki, make him lonely" or something like that."

"My mother really saying something like that..."

Mother's words repeated from misaki's mouth made Mizuki's heart beat fast.

"Yoko-san, he said that. Mizuki, you are actually a good child who is strong and gentle. But that's what worries me. That's because you are too strong and gentle, and you hide everything yourself... I'm worried that one day you will won't be able to bear it anymore."

Mizuki thought. On at the last moment, his mother still loved him very much.

Always worried about Mizuki. Place you're in second place.. If Mizuki was really that type of person "strong and gentle" as his mother said, then there is no doubt again, it must be because he grew up seeing the figure of his mother. Because it was his mother's example that Mizuki was able to get to where he is now, and Mizuki can hold his chest and say this with confidence.

"If it's Mizuki, alone in a painful situation. When you can't escape, maybe I can't be by your side anymore. Just thinking about it makes me regret. The mind cannot do something for you that can be done a mother makes you cry unforgivably. ——Yoko-san really is sad when he said these words.”

"Maybe it was Yoko-san "i've anticipated something," said Misaki.

"So I said it without thinking. Said, “Then, I will recover, and then I will be released from the hospital to become a supporter of Mizuki.” “If Mizuki alone, I will be Mizuki's friend!”.”

“Well, from the final result, don't talk about being friends, even girlfriends."

Misaki said shyly.

Those sudden words made Mizuki blush.

"After I said that, Yoko-san smiled at me and said "Thank you" to me. I am very happy. Since I can survive with Yoko-san's support, I feel like I can return the favor.”

As if remembering what what happened at that time, Misaki smiled nostalgically.

"After seeing Mizuki alone, I felt that I should not give up my vows. Otherwise, I wouldn't have the face to see Yoko-san in heaven. More importantly, I can't accept seeing you alone... So, under this consideration, I added three "Wishes" A wish fulfilled before I died, I formed an alliance with you."

Misaki's voice echoed in Mizuki's heart. Then, mizuki's brain started working quickly.

Previously, Mizuki always thought that this alliance was for Misaki. Based on the same position, Mizuki himself enjoys alliance activities from the bottom of his heart, but his goals are the most important thing is to let Misaki start the journey without regrets...

However, Misaki said that this alliance was to fulfill the purpose of the promise with his mother.

That means——

“... Lol. What, isn't this the opposite?”

Mizuki covered his forehead with his hand after being thrown.

It's just that Misaki doesn't let himself realize it. From the start, this alliance was...

"I don't care no matter how hard I try, it won't last long. So, I want you to know the joy of being with someone else, Mizuki. In this case, after me go, Mizuki, you should be able to take the initiative to mingle with people many. So as an excuse, I proposed to form an alliance with you.”

Who is this alliance for made? Misaki shows Mizuki her true purpose in the end find answers.

No wonder Misaki tried loud when he proposed to form an alliance.

Because of the alliance proposed by Misaki was founded for Mizuki from the start. Misaki has little time left not used for himself in the first place, but for Mizuki, only for Mizuki.

"Well, since we went to fireworks display together, your goals with you have changed... The goal is wanting to spend time with Mizuki that I like the most."

Misaki said with a face flushed and a big smile.

Every word he said made Mizuki so happy that he was so overwhelmed that he would crying again.

"I won't say nothing about changing goals midway. That's why I am keep it a secret and form an alliance with Mizuki. Now me thinking about it, I didn't ask for Mizuki's opinion at all, it was just self-righteous ideas. Maybe you think, Mizuki, I'm just interfering in your own business.. I'm really sorry if I made you angry."

Misaki in the photo subdued him head deep.

Mizuki shook her head, knowing that Misaki's apology cannot be conveyed.

"There's no such thing that. Thanks to your intervention, I can remember the joy I experienced with other people. Thank you very much, Misaki."

If it weren't for forced aid Misaki, Mizuki is probably still alone to this day. Lock yourself in library depth. Able to experience unknown joy other people are because of Misaki.

If possible, Mizuki would like to found out early—when Misaki was alive, she knew about things this. In that case, I can thank him very much good. This was the only regret in Mizuki's heart.

"That's all my secret. It's much easier to finally admit all my secrets."

When he said, Misaki smile brightly. Then, as if summarizing the words, he cleared his throat.

"Well, there are thousands of words I want to tell you, but I can't do anything other than bless you in another world. But, I still hope that Mizuki can carry it out your life is positive.”

Misaki on the screen said so, looking at Mizuki affectionately.

"Because I dropped you, I took the first step. So, I know I don't qualify to say that. However, even if I don't know what to do what, I want to say it. It's okay! Mizuki! Because Mizuki, you are someone I can like, a very handsome child. Mizuki, you have to be able to survive strongly. So... don't be sad just because of me go!”

Misaki in the picture gives Mizuki punch with a smile.

Fist outstretched from the side another screen beats all the negative things left in Mizuki's heart with beautiful. Damaged power is the degree of knockout with one stroke.

"Ah, so I see..."

Mizuki smiled weakly, but agree.

Yes, Misaki is someone like that that. Always go all out, and at the same time ask Mizuki to all out.

If Mizuki commits suicide now, even if he saw Misaki there, he would probably turn his back Mizuki and refused to see him. He will definitely turn his back...and then covered his face and cried alone.

Also, if Mizuki really is unable to think about chasing Misaki, her mother would definitely blame her.

Mizuki didn't want to do it anything that will make mom and Misaki sad. Because I don't want to seeing their sad faces.

“Looks like I can only survive until the last moment in this world, able to survive below thoughts of various people.”

Mizuki smiled wryly at Misaki on screen.

This is what is expected by the most loved and respected people of themselves even if they leave the world. It can't be ignored at all.

First of all, isn't he tell Misaki herself. Save the things people leave behind important to you, cherish them in your heart, and live on.

Mizuki has to keep working loud in this world.

Thinking about this, I don't know if it's a coincidence, but Misaki in the photo also smiles.

"Then, Mizuki, isn't it time for you to draw your energy too? ...If so, I'll calm down..."

"Well, that's right,"

mizuki answered reflexively to the direction of Misaki, who in the end lacked a little confidence.

"Then what I'm going to say will stop here. Thanks for watching until end. I will pray for your future happiness in the world another. Go, Mizuki!”

Saying so, Misaki ending recording.

He just got it courage from Misaki, but when she thought that it would be soon ended, he felt lonely and unbearable.

At this moment, Misaki suddenly said, "Ah, I forgot to say something". Misaki returns to camera, showing a warm smile like the spring sun-
"I, Fujieda Misaki, am more than anyone else in the world--no, in comparison anyone in the other world, I love Akiyama Mizuki! I like you the most!!!"

Mizuki suddenly opened his eyes were wide and he looked at Misaki who was still smiling in the photo that. His wide eyes slowly became wet.

“Me too, I'm very like you.”

Mizuki laughed and cried, responding to Misaki's confession.

Satisfied with having conveyed his last thought, Misaki finally turned off the camera and video playback stalled.

Mizuki turns off the computer, wiped away the tears, and took a deep breath.

Almost insane despair that filled his body had been diluted before he knew it. This was Misaki's voice, and Misaki's smile was the result.

Sure enough, he couldn't beat Misaki no matter what.

Think like this, Mizuki finally smiled again after a few days.

“OK, come on!”

Mizuki walked towards the kitchen after urging himself to stand up.

I haven't eaten well today this. However, this is unacceptable. Mizuki temporarily soaked himself with a cup of noodles on the shelf, and after three minutes of waiting, he started devouring it.

After filling my stomach, my mood became more positive.

Even now, sadness because Misaki was no longer by his side, it still left an impression on his heart.

But time to mourn this it's over. Bringing this sadness, even so, we must live positively. As an abandoned person, I continued walking with my lover's mind. Mizuki was mentally prepared for this.

Mizuki returned to the living room, put the USB flash drive back into the small box, put it in cupboard, and put it next to the harmonica.

“Misaki, watch over me in the world else, I will work hard until the last second in this world.”

Mizuki smiled at the gift that Misaki left for herself.

This is a promise to Misaki—no, that is a promise to many people who support him.

Mizuki holding an oath in his hand, staring at what he was about to do, and closing cupboard door.

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